I'm not who I was

Being an Iwitness:

I have been thinking alot about change ( like how and why and the purpose..ect).
In my last blog I said that "healed & saved= life change"...
Here are some notes----

• If I have a true relationship with Jesus Christ I know it.
• A true relationship with Jesus leads to life change.
• When a person becomes an iwitness, not everyone is pleased because they don't "get" the change and don't understand why you don't do what you used to do. I have been there!
• If I am a true iwitness, Jesus wil not embarass me.
• If I've been an iwitness to what God has done in my life through Christ, I want others I love to experience the same thing.
• We need to plant seeds in the unsaved.
• Iwitnesses can do more together than they can do on their own.
• Real iwitnesses care more about God's opinion of them, than what other people think.
• Genuine faith in Christ is based on fact, not just feelings or wishful thinking.
• Salvation is only found in Jesus Christ. His grace reaches lower than your worst mistake. His love will run farther than you can run away.
• Jesus is victorious where human beings fail.
• When my eyes are on God, I bless Him in good times and bad.
• When God is my vision, other people see Him as well.

How would you live if you only have 30 days to live?.... Would you keep falling short and not changing your habits or would you be praising the Lord and change your habits ( would you be able to take off the mask of the world?)

Keeping this in mind... how hard is it to actually change? All it takes is the will power and keeping your eyes on Jesus. When I was watching the movie Passion of the Christ...I was thinking about the pain that Jesus had to feel to save me from my sin. I couldnt watch it.

Its funny to think of all the selfish people... what if Jesus was selfish?.. we'd be messed up. I think about everyone who knows that what they are doing is wrong and they still mindfully do it. I know b/c I was one of those people.... still struggle with that.

I have something to say but not sure exactly what I is that I am trying to say. I am just overwhelmed.

I think about where I used to be, where I am now, and where i'm gonna be. I thank God for everything He is doing in me.

I pray that He keeps me broken for Him... and that I remember that its not about me... Its about Him.

I pray for all those who have strayed away.... for all of those who are facing some type of struggle.... Don't be fooled. Take off the mask of the world and take up the cross....

This world has nothing for me.

Hopefully in my next blog I will actually figure out what it is that I am really trying to say....

~Shiny People~

When I looked up my name, Cassandra, it meant "to shine" or "to shine on man". I started thinking alot about it....
It is starting to make sense to me. I have to learn how to shine... or what it "means" to shine.
Where I am now, I think I am headed in that direction.

My Pastor said," A true relationship with Jesus leads to life change" (healed & saved= life change)
I have the saved part, but still working on the healing part. I still have alot that the Lord is teaching me and restoring in me.
He is healing me everyday.
Things that I know need to be restored or healed in me are: my mistrust in people (I can't make them pay for things that happened in my past), my broken heart, my need to be "accepted" and my closing off or shutting down when I get scared or nervous... and so on and so on...
So there is alot that is being worked on.
When you begin to "shine" for Jesus your values and habits change. Alot of people don't "get it"... and thats okay. Some people don't understand how you are changing or what is causing this change.
Change isn't easy. Infact, it is probably one of the hardest and most emotional things I have ever gone through.
I cant understand how the not so shiny people couldn't understand.
I didn't.
I was so covered with all the junk of the world that I couldn't believe what God was telling me. I couldn't see why He would want me.

Just like a rock. It might be dirty, chipped or broken. Everyone walks right past them, unnoticed. Those rocks are the unsaved...and the saved that aren't changed or restored yet. All God has to do is wash the dirt off. Underneath all that dirt is something strong and beautiful.
The broken ones tend to shine more and come with an awesome story.

Knowing where I am now and seeing where I was... makes me want to shine brighter. I want to be the broken rock. The one that shines and tells a story of amazing grace and how Jesus washed the dirt off and how He polished me with His love... to make me shine.
You can't do it by yourself.

We need to be able to shine so bright for the Lord, that the ones lost in the dark will see it and come running.
We need to plant seeds in the unsaved. Help wash the dirt off.
That is what Jesus did for us.

How do you shine for the Lord? Do you allow yourself to shine bright or are you scared to be that bright light? How much dirt were you covered with before you were saved and cleaned (or changed)?
Do you help to wash the dirt off of the unsaved?